Put a bullet through my brain

Feel like So...Appling for a pullip thingy

Wed, 23 May 2007 15:52:07 GMT

The Basics
Name: Megan
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Nationality:White American
How did you find us? :Kawaii Miaka answered my question on Pullipstyle forum

All About You
Five words that describe you best: smart, original, quiet, different, dark
Your biggest flaw:I'm a bit too dark in what I say
Likes: Writing, reading, thinking, taking pictures and sewing
Fashion style: Anything. I'll wear anything from t-shirt and jeans to corsets, to a frilly pink dress
Something you admire: Being able to speak for what you want
Something you loathe:People who take away other's voices
Favorite color(s): Forest Green, Black, Brown
What five objects/accessories define you best?: Fake skull vans, playboy bunny purse, nintendo DS, my little black journal, and my camera
If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? : London
If you had to describe yourself as an animal, what animal would it be and why? : Kitty cause they can be sweet and loveable, and also bad luck
Aspirations for the future and present: To be a writer or a teacher

Pullips
Favorite Pullip and why? : Stock? Well that's have to be Principess because she's just so freaking amazing. Her lips details are to die for, her eyes just pop more than any other I think. And she can pull off gothic lolita with ease, punk just looks amazing on her, and when you put sweet-prep-like clothes she looks like the kid who is hiding something. But not stock? My custom LRRH by Jo,
Least favorite Pullip and why? : Cornice. I don't know I just see alot of her and it just wears down on me. Plus any DALs...I am not a fan
Most overrated Pullip and why? : Lepperatto, I just think that there's too much hype when she's mentioned

Randomness
What does this mean to you?
"You get burnt when you touch me!! I am more like a lady spy, ...Feel like this."
To me that I'm a super sexy spy that James Bond probably wants the body of. Sexy red leather suit, skin tight with flame details.
Man that would be a fricken awesome doll!

Post a few clear pictures of yourself!: If you do not want to share a picture or cannot provide one, please describe yourself instead!

I'm the one holding her face in my chin...Hair's different now but I still have the same face!
I'll add more when I get home from school

Now, make sure to vote on everyone else's applications that have not been stamped yet.</

How unbelievably dreadful

Wed, 16 May 2007 14:20:25 GMT

So today is like hell. I had to work until ten and got stuck there quite a bit past ten. Mom was pissed waiting in the parking lot for me. Stupid Taco Bell. It didn't help that I went home from school early because I was hurling, and when I got home Mom sent me to sleep and I woke up right before work, too late to call in.

Work's not the bitching I want to do. Math is. Oh math how I hate you. I've never failed a class before...IN MY LIFE. So I'm failing Trig and apparently the teacher has told me to just...Give up. How unbelievably dreadful. It's bad enough I've never failed before, now I'm failing so bad that I can't even fucking fix it. So 4th hour I have to go in with a goddamn smile plastered onto my face and look at my pregnant bitch of a teacher and paint one of her goddamn ceiling tiles.

Yes. Ceiling tiles. We're been doing that for the past week, not studying for the test that was yesterday. It was take home test and after I got home I just feel right asleep onto it, I woke up wit ha stupid pencil in my mouth crushed papers all over and I think I drooled on my book, but fuckit I'm not paying.

I asked her what should I do and she said that I'm failing to the point that there's nothing I can do. Okay, fine, whatever. That I can take. Then she asked my plans for the future, I told her English or psychology, and then she went math-ape shit on me and did the whole "You need college Algerbra" welll no fucking DUH! Uh hello...I'm not a complete and fucking moron, I do know whats required for my field of interest. If I didn't then I guess that I'm fucked up even more.

But wait, the pissing off of the Megan has not ended yet.

She told me that I probably won't make it to college.

That's like telling a five year-old that there's no way in hell they can be a fireman. No because fire is the devil and their retarded little minds cant handle the concept of a hose that pumps, oh I don't know...Water? I've always wanting to make it into College, no one else in my family has and apparently all my life--except for this moment-- I was the only the with potential. I guess that potential went to my balloon of a head.

It didn't even help that the principle saw me in the hallway crying and just rolled his eyes. I'm not that fuckigng freaky to where the sexually odd principle can't escort me to the office. No he rolls his judgemental redneck eyes, and walks on.

Yeah I don't wear pink and show off my teenage body for your god-only-knows how old eyes. Thank you for only respecting the pretty girls. I think if I am ever to end it, I'm going to have to mention the akwardly creepy sexual tension this school has. I mean come on fuckface you're too old.

So now I should be typing a paper about the War on Terrorism. I wonder if I make a page jus say "I'm a fucktard like Bush" in big bold letters, maybe I'll pass..Who knows.

Tainted Light Background Info

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 00:33:54 GMT

Since I'm lazy and don't have half the talent of a capable photographer, plus time is one of those things I just don't own/believe in. So I'm going to type here some Tainted Light Background Infomation. Picfics will hopefully be up fairly soon.

Story:
Tainted Light is a combination of various stories I've been working on or have finished, and even some old RPG characters of mine will show up. The main story line of Tainted Light is based off my novel I've been trying to get done, Covent (working title). The world in which many characters originated from is Merdidia. I'm not going to say who all's from there, but Ahme, the Elf, and obviously a few others are.

The Merdidians are on Earth because they made soem very fatal mistakes, and the creator of Merdidia decided that the wrongs could no longer be fixed there, and Earth seemed like a good playing field. Auroua was waaaaaaay off.

So now these "other-wordly beings" are trying to make a living mordern day Earth, and some how ended up in Misery Missouri.

Characters (in order of appearence):
Tiara Rainey
Type: Venus
Story of orgin: "Downfall of An American Teenager" (mine)
Age: 18
Slight bio: Tiara's best friends with Eva, and Blake. Has a thing for Blake, was very attached to the person who's died.

Blake Heisenberg
Type: Filato
Story of orgin: None, he's free standing
Age: 19
Slight Bio: Man whore. Blake's a guy, he's got hormones, and there's lots of ladies in the house without boy-toys. Really into Megan, and Lydia. Head over heels for Eva but is not allowed to date her.

Seraph Baelsha
Type: Water Elf custom
Story of Orgin: Covent
Age: Agless
Slight bio: Umm....no sneakies for you!

Megan L.
Type: Custom Nina
Story of Orgin: Pullip-ME!
Age: 18
Slight Bio: It's just a fantasized version of me, pullip-me has many secrets.

Pandora:
No info on Pandora

Eva(ngeline) Brooks:
Type: Nomado
Story of Orgin: Modified Covent
Age: 17
Slight bio: Rhinnion and Aden's niece. Dead parents. Nothing else right now.

Rhinnion Diverna:
No info

Aden Diverna:
No info

Her Impreial Highness, Goddess Ahmenous Bulregaurd:
It's her story technically so I can't really give you any info can I?

One Night and One More Time...

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 16:01:18 GMT

So I guess I'm only going to whine since that all this livejournal seems to see. So first off before the bitch-fest. I hope everyone is feeling good and is happy. Not like this is read, which doesn't bother me one bit, it means I can complain with slight freedom.

I need to post some pullips pictures...

Really crappy picture taken at..what midnight it seems? I think it caught her snister side that Princi's seem to have. I love my Pandora! Though I avoid touching her too much, don't want to break those goregous curls.

Anyways now I'm going to vent in hopes that it makes me feel better. So everyone here in dullsvile seems to be depessed, even though spring is almost here, and the saddness bug as bit me. I'm freaking out about college, like bad. I'm scared this year will screw up my chances of getting into Truman. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get into college, its been my dream since I was about...God I don't know 8? Everyone's all excited that we're all about to graduate, but I'm here freaking out that this is the end of my educated life, and all I want is to stay here in school forever. There's so many classes I haven't taken that I want to, so many things I don't know that I want to know. So many possiblities. I feel like its all slipping away from me. How pathetic do I sound?

I'm losing sleep over this though. I can't fall asleep until almost four every morning, freaking about what I don't know and how I'll never know it. It doesn't help that I feel like friendship issues are everywhere, everyone has their own problems and I don't want them to think that I have some. I keep crying for no apparent reason now, anything will get me to start and then it doesn't stop until I've almost hyperventalated(<- how the hell do you spell that?) myself into a coma.

I'm just screaming and nobody hears me. Unfortunately I'm screaming in my brain.

I should spell check this...but I don't care right now.

Longtime Sunshine

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 04:28:39 GMT

Type your cut contents here.
So I have no clue why I did this effect, the pose without it just seemed...boring...

It amazes me how pretty Rhinnion is. I'm sooo happy I paid all that money to buy her, rebody her, and get her customed. Jo is by far a freaking genius.

So I really like the color green...

I actually really dislike this one...Alot...

This one's a close favorite.

This one really is my favorite.

I like the gold effect alot too...hell I like all effects.

I love this one too...I really like the color on b&w effects the most me thinks.

I think this one captures the feeling the most. If I had to just choose one to post to get the photoshoot thing across, this one would be it.

So if there's another pullip fabulous contest coming up anytime soon, I think that I may enter Rhinnion, since she's flipping goregous in my eyes. But then again knowing me I'll chicken out like I have for the past two.

I got some problems...but we've got ten dollars...

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 02:35:44 GMT

That's enough to get us wasted before the night is over...

So how is everyone? Life's very okay with me right now. I think that it is at least. I'm debating on buying some new eyechips for Blake...I really want him all customed out now! Here's what he looks like (pardon the crappyness of the pic)

So what should I do to him?

Listen sweetie...

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 16:58:49 GMT

You never meant that much to me.

I'm listening to an awesome CD that Lydia let me burn (I'VE WAITED SO LONG!) So how is everyone one today? I'm fricken great, I found out that my venus will be fixed, thank you obitsu for making Marrone, and I'm just totally excited for Friday, which I'm hoping shall be amazing.

It's kind of odd that I'm already thinking about prom, I'm usually a late planner, but I think I want to get some expenses out of the way and saved up so I can go back to buying me some pullips! I need some more boys. It's not even funny. I'm happy that I'm finally getting Blake to being where I want him to be. With his new do made by the wonderful lovehaze (pictures later I'm at school right now) I think I need to add a little bit of more face-up to him. He's just not dark enough yet, but he is wearing an outfit that's held together by safety pins (I love it actually) with white glued to it, and some girl pants. Sammi thinks he's more punk than emo, but I can live with that, he just is my dark boy. So I think I may try to get to micheals tonight and buy some pastels and what not and play around a bit and see what happens.

So part of me wants to bring some pullips (like Blake and Pandora) to STL friday and talk Erin, Lydia and Phil into hitting a place where I can take pictures...Hell I just take pictures anywhere. I'm not ashamed to be a doll lover! Other than that, Friday is going to be amazing and I can't wait!

Even if Saving You Sends Me to Heaven...

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 03:55:07 GMT

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find ~~deep inside me~~, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and ~~stars~~ are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my, my
my true love
my whole heart
~~please don't throw that away.~~

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay..

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

So what's up everyone? I really love that song, so I just had to post it. How is everyone? I'm actually wonderful right now. Life has actually been pretty good right now.

I'm not friends with Missy...Again. Oh well. I've lived without her once before, I can do so again. I hope she has a good life.

Erin, Lydia and even Phil are like the best people ever. Seriously. Don't doubt it, but I guess you could if they weren't your best friends.

Oh once las thing, Pullips rock, Playboy rocks, The Girls Next Door KICK ASS, and going to STL is amazing.

Woot I can't wait till Friday.

Umm...screw a title/subject thing

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 16:09:24 GMT

Fuck me. I'm so angry with myself right now that it's not even funny. I'm such a MORON. Because I relied on someone I screwed over myself on getting to do the thing I've been wanting to do since...God I can't even remember when. I shouldn't have relied on Lydia and now I'm desperate for a ride there...I really hope that Josh can take me. I need my big brother to for once...well be my big brother...

Come on to my house!

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 01:44:06 GMT

Hee hee Erin got me ADDICTED to the Girls Next Door...So I took some pullip pictures!

Well...yeah that's all

Baby All I Want for Christmas is You

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 03:54:17 GMT

So my dad is fricken AMAZING. He gave me my christmas money early so I can pay off Principessa earlier. This christmas will rock my ever living socks. This means that most likely she'll be here for the doll meet. Swizzle *does the swizzle hand motion*.

So I have nothing else of import...Today was the work christmas party but I chose not to go. There's drama in my group of friends...Yuck

Seventeen Aint So Sweet

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 17:11:31 GMT

So I'm a very excited person, I've recently purchased a Principessa, my grail pullip. She's based off of Mana from Malice Mizer...I think that's how you spell it...and she's not for -sure- based off him...Or at least I'm not sure if thats what Jun Planning was thinking.

Anyways I'm really excited about it. I hope I cna get the money for her really fast, so she can get here really fast. I want her here before the doll meet thingy that Fyire is having... If I can still go >.<. I'm so tempted to send some money to Iamily so I can pay her off for sure on the 22, when my money goes through at the bank. Man now I'm really scared that I can't goto Fyire's party...I really do want to go and see all the BJDs...She's made me heart them so much. I'm hopefully getting one next year for graduation.

So everything at school is fine, and except for now Im all worried about that...I shouldn't be. I'll just have to remember to check my DOA account.

Rhinnion just got sexy O_o

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 17:07:16 GMT

Damn Regret

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 15:22:44 GMT

The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I'll kiss you on your neck
People'll stare and we won't care
We're high above the ground
We're nowhere to be found

Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again, I am ~~repeating myself~~
And I know it is gone for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
~~Don't worry about me~~
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

I'm wishing you were here
My ~~weakness~~ is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason, life for me to care
Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around

Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again, I am ~~repeating myself~~
And I know it is gone for you
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
~~Don't worry about me~~
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no-one's there
And when I'm lonely in my ~~darkest hour~~
You give me the power
To sit and pretend

Damn regret, I'll try to forget
~~Don't worry about me~~
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?

Did you think I forget?
Did you think I surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I forget?
Did you think I surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?

Ove a month of pictures

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 02:18:10 GMT

Yeah just look in the cut...

Wow that's alot...

Eyes burning up the sky

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 03:01:51 GMT

So I had some fabric left over from a skirt I had -tried- to make, but yellow is just not my color, so I took some of the fabric (which is still well over two yards) and I tried to make a dress for Adrian, but instead she ended up wearing...this

Meridith is such a camera whore...

The reason the panda pics are kinda crappy is cause they were taken at my Dad's...I go down there only on Sunday and I bring a pullip everytime. He loves them alot.

First picfic!

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:45:02 GMT

After some yelling...

Aden: Oh my god what's going?!
Adrian: *muffled noises*
Tiara: GAH GET IT OFF!!!

Adrian: Do you mind? I'm kinda having a moment here...
Tiara: Okay... I'm fine now get off!!!
Aden: Fuck... I was hoping that you guys were engaged in some lesbian action : (
Adrian: No...Not now anyways *winks at Tiara*
Aden: Whatever. Names.

Adrian: I'm Adrian Brooks.
Aden: Nice to know. Blondie. Name. Now.

Tiara: *shoves Adrian out of the way* Why I'm Tiara Rainey, Sir. Pleasure to meet ya!
Adrian: Uhh..wtf?
Aden: Great... Southern girl.

Aden: Oh...Wait! You're Adrian Brooks... As in Eva's cousin
Adrian: *nods* Yeah and also as in...the model
Aden: Whatever. And so that means that you Miss. Tiara must be Blake's friend..
Tiara: Uh, huh.
Aden: C'mon, lets go tell Eva you all are here.

~*Few Minutes Later*~

Aden: Hey Eva..
Eva: *totally ignoring him*
Aden: You know how there was yelling?

Aden: Well I RAN out there like the wind, you see. I was hoping for some...
Eva: *still ignoring him*
Aden: Well I guess I was hoping that Rhinnion was coming home but instead... You totally aren't listening.

Aden: So then I captured the fairy prince and had my way with the frogs.
Eva: *posting on myspace*

Aden: Girl, I'm your uncle and now father figure. Listen to me...Please?

Eva: Fine! *looks up* What do you want.
Aden: Tiara and Adrian are here.

Eva: *gasp* Why didn't you tell me!?
Aden: I tried. You were too caught up blogging about how crazy I am.
Eva: Gah. You suck as a uncle. Where are they?
Aden: You're room

*In the other room*
Tiara: So you're a model?
Adrian: Yeah. I mainly do runway though. Magazines suck.
Tiara: I'm still in college.
Adrian: Uh..That's great.

Eva: *pops in* Sorry about making you two wait.
Adrian: Hey Evangeline, how's my one and only purple haired freak?
Eva: Fine. *looks at Tiara* Hiya. I'm Evangeline Brooks.
Tiara: I'm Tiara Rainey.

Adrian & Eva: *ignore Tiara*
Eva: So how was Paris? Tokyo? Milan?
Adrian: Hun, I'm moving in. I have a lot of time to tell you about my travels. But all those places rock.
Eva: *dreamy sigh* Lucky you, I'm stuck here in Misery...

Tiara: I think I'm gunna go find Blake. These two are boring

Adrian: There was this awesome garden in France that I got to pose nude in--
Eva: Okay...Stop with the nakedness

Tiara: *gets up and pulls hair out of the way* I think I saw him down on the first floor

Adrian: Uh.. Where'd the sexy cow girl go?
Eva: Uh oh. I bet she went to see Blake. He's sick.
Adrian: Oooooh~ Is he the boy you've been blogging about?
Eva: *blush*

Tiara: Oh poor Blakey. I bet snapping your ankle sucks.

Eva: I'll be back.
Adrian: Wait!

Eva: I should've taken you down here. Sorry.
Tiara: Oh its fine. He just looks so...peaceful...
Eva: Yeah...

Eva: Poor Blake.
Tiara: Yeah. Poor Blake.

Tiara: *smoooch*

Tiara: Well I'm gunna go set things straight with your cousin.
Eva: Good luck. She's crazy.
Tiara: I can tell.

Eva: Oooh. Nobody's here...

Blake: *snore*

Eva: *snuggle*

Few minutes later...

Blake: Mmm... Waking up to this is nice *snuggles closer*

Yay! It suck!

Blahhhhh

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 01:51:10 GMT

So yeah I need to do some updating on this thing. But well I have felt awfully lazy lately. I still have no good pictures yet. So nope, none are gunna be posted. Probably not until Rhinnion gets done by Jo, or in september when I get the new purezza...

I'm so damn lazy

Alrighty then

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 06:44:54 GMT

This LJ used to be my little emo whiney bitchy place. Now it's going to be my dolly journal cause I'm in love with pullips. Yeah the entry before this is just one that I couldn't bare to part with. So it's still here. Hopefully I'll have all my dolly stuff up soonish.

Sweet sweet pullips