So today is like hell. I had to work until ten and got stuck there quite a bit past ten. Mom was pissed waiting in the parking lot for me. Stupid Taco Bell. It didn't help that I went home from school early because I was hurling, and when I got home Mom sent me to sleep and I woke up right before work, too late to call in.

Work's not the bitching I want to do. Math is. Oh math how I hate you. I've never failed a class before...IN MY LIFE. So I'm failing Trig and apparently the teacher has told me to just...Give up. How unbelievably dreadful. It's bad enough I've never failed before, now I'm failing so bad that I can't even fucking fix it. So 4th hour I have to go in with a goddamn smile plastered onto my face and look at my pregnant bitch of a teacher and paint one of her goddamn ceiling tiles. 

Yes. Ceiling tiles. We're been doing that for the past week, not studying for the test that was yesterday. It was take home test and after I got home I just feel right asleep onto it, I woke up wit ha stupid pencil in my mouth crushed papers all over and I think I drooled on my book, but fuckit I'm not paying.

I asked her what should I do and she said that I'm failing to the point that there's nothing I can do. Okay, fine, whatever. That I can take. Then she asked my plans for the future, I told her English or psychology, and then she went math-ape shit on me and did the whole "You need college Algerbra" welll no fucking DUH! Uh hello...I'm not a complete and fucking moron, I do know whats required for my field of interest. If I didn't then I guess that I'm fucked up even more.

But wait, the pissing off of the Megan has not ended yet. 

She told me that I probably won't make it to college. 

That's like telling a five year-old that there's no way in hell they can be a fireman. No because fire is the devil and their retarded little minds cant handle the concept of a hose that pumps, oh I don't know...Water? I've always wanting to make it into College, no one else in my family has and apparently all my life--except for this moment-- I was the only the with potential. I guess that potential went to my balloon of a head.

It didn't even help that the principle saw me in the hallway crying and just rolled his eyes. I'm not that fuckigng freaky to where the sexually odd principle can't escort me to the office. No he rolls his judgemental redneck eyes, and walks on.

Yeah I don't wear pink and show off my teenage body for your god-only-knows how old eyes. Thank you for only respecting the pretty girls. I think if I am ever to end it, I'm going to have to mention the akwardly creepy sexual tension this school has. I mean come on fuckface you're too old.

So now I should be typing a paper about the War on Terrorism. I wonder if I make a page jus say "I'm a fucktard like Bush" in big bold letters, maybe I'll pass..Who knows.

Since I'm lazy and don't have half the talent of a capable photographer, plus time is one of those things I just don't own/believe in. So I'm going to type here some Tainted Light Background Infomation. Picfics will hopefully be up fairly soon.

Story:
Tainted Light is a combination of various stories I've been working on or have finished, and even some old RPG characters of mine will show up. The main story line of Tainted Light is based off my novel I've been trying to get done, Covent (working title). The world in which many characters originated from is Merdidia. I'm not going to say who all's from there, but Ahme, the Elf, and obviously a few others are. 

The Merdidians are on Earth because they made soem very fatal mistakes, and the creator of Merdidia decided that the wrongs could no longer be fixed there, and Earth seemed like a good playing field. Auroua was waaaaaaay off.

So now these "other-wordly beings" are trying to make a living mordern day Earth, and some how ended up in Misery Missouri.

Characters (in order of appearence):
Tiara Rainey
Type: Venus
Story of orgin: "Downfall of An American Teenager" (mine)
Age: 18
Slight bio: Tiara's best friends with Eva, and Blake. Has a thing for Blake, was very attached to the person who's died. 

Blake Heisenberg
Type: Filato
Story of orgin: None, he's free standing
Age: 19
Slight Bio: Man whore.  Blake's a guy, he's got hormones, and there's lots of ladies in the house without boy-toys. Really into Megan, and Lydia. Head over heels for Eva but is not allowed to date her.

Seraph Baelsha
Type: Water Elf custom
Story of Orgin: Covent
Age: Agless
Slight bio: Umm....no sneakies for you!

Megan L.
Type: Custom Nina
Story of Orgin: Pullip-ME!
Age: 18
Slight Bio: It's just a fantasized version of me, pullip-me has many secrets.

Pandora:
No info on Pandora

Eva(ngeline) Brooks:
Type: Nomado
Story of Orgin: Modified Covent
Age: 17
Slight bio: Rhinnion and Aden's niece. Dead parents. Nothing else right now.

Rhinnion Diverna:
No info

Aden Diverna:
No info

Her Impreial Highness, Goddess Ahmenous Bulregaurd:
It's her story technically so I can't really give you any info can I?

So I guess I'm only going to whine since that all this livejournal seems to see. So first off before the bitch-fest. I hope everyone is feeling good and is happy. Not like this is read, which doesn't bother me one bit, it means I can complain with slight freedom.

I need to post some pullips pictures...

Really crappy picture taken at..what midnight it seems? I think it caught her snister side that Princi's seem to have. I love my Pandora! Though I avoid touching her too much, don't want to break those goregous curls.

Anyways now I'm going to vent in hopes that it makes me feel better. So everyone here in dullsvile seems to be depessed, even though spring is almost here, and the saddness bug as bit me. I'm freaking out about college, like bad. I'm scared this year will screw up my chances of getting into Truman. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get into college, its been my dream since I was about...God I don't know 8? Everyone's all excited that we're all about to graduate, but I'm here freaking out that this is the end of my educated life, and all I want is to stay here in school forever. There's so many classes I haven't taken that I want to, so many things I don't know  that I want to know. So many possiblities. I feel like its all slipping away from me. How pathetic do I sound?

I'm losing sleep over this though. I can't fall asleep until almost four every morning, freaking about what I don't know and how I'll never know it. It doesn't help that I feel like friendship issues are everywhere, everyone has their own problems and I don't want them to think that I have some. I keep crying for no apparent reason now, anything will get me to start and then it doesn't stop until I've almost hyperventalated(<- how the hell do you spell that?) myself into a coma. 

I'm just screaming and nobody hears me. Unfortunately I'm screaming in my brain.

I should spell check this...but I don't care right now.

Fuck me.  I'm so angry with myself right now that it's not even funny. I'm such a MORON. Because I relied on someone I screwed over myself on getting to do the thing I've been wanting to do since...God I can't even remember when. I shouldn't have relied on Lydia and now I'm desperate for a ride there...I really hope that Josh can take me. I need my big brother to for once...well be my big brother...